Random thoughts from the eccentric lady....

It has been an interesting few days. I am starting to learn the difference between assertive an aggressive. Most of my past has been aggressive. Getting upset with someone but not saying what was on my mind til I was ready to blow. Getting so pist that finally when I did say something my words and actions were raw and oft times mean. It seems that as I am going thru this journey I am gaining a better understanding of what makes me tick and addressing it in a proactive and assertive way. I have realized as of late that it is not my job to help everyone. Besides what justice am I doing the person by " helping them, or doing it for them"??? I am still an awesome resource and am willing to help those who want to help themselves. I will not however be an enabler anymore.


I am noticing a difference in my dealing with people as I deal with me. I am feeling more assertive in all my dealings. I have just got how kick ass I truly am. As a Worker, As a friend and in my overall life. I have spent so much time being insecure an sabotaging myself. NO more. I really am taking cant out of my vocabulary. I can be healthy, I can have whatever I want. I just have to believe that I can. I am most definately coming out of the dark place I have been in for so long.  Dont get me wrong I still have bad days. It is part of getting better and dealing with everything that I need to. I know once this process is complete I will come out ahead. Feeling better inside and outside. I am already noticing some differences. Physically. Emotionally. I am becoming more outgoing and happy.