Oh man I am confused like no other. The ex that I almost married and moved to Arizona for is back. Those old feelings are surfacing once more. I dont want them to, but they are. Im not sure if it is because I am reminiscing about our past. The could of, would of, should of. I am a bit trepidatious about this whole situation. The first night we hung out He apologized for everything that he did and what happened. I was nice and told him that it had been five years. I had moved on. Dated again. What I didnt share is how much I had missed him, thought about him frequently. Oh man. Im in a bit of a conundrum. Last night he told me that he still loved me. I believe him, but Im not sure anymore if he is someone that I would want to spend my days with. Or am I making excuses?? Oh god Im beyond confused. It seems as of late, almost everyone from my past that Ive dated is trying to get back in touch with me???
On a different topic, I received a compliment from my neighbor about my weight. I havent been paying attention and have been forbidden from stepping on a scale. So I havent been paying attention. I mean I feel better. I just thought it was because I am healing my innards. Lol. Yeah for me.
I have decided to get a road bike and start training to do a 40 mile bike ride at the end of june for Ms. I am so excited. this is my cause. I feel so blessed and lucky to know the person at 24 hr fitness that is in charge of this. Yeah. I would never of thought about this even a yr or two ago. I was having an Eeyore type of life. Not anymore. I am alive and vibrant. Ready to take on the world in all its entirety. Whoo hoo.
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