Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I am truly content and happy

I have so many wonderful things in my life to be grateful for. My family, who has been there for me through thick and thin. Well to be exact a couple of my siblings. My sister Jamie, who has been my cheer leader over the last couple of years. When starting and going to therapy to become healthy. My sister Angie who reminds me of how life should be. That I should be celebrating the small stuff and not focusing on the bad things. Amazing what a difference this makes.
The sales job that I took a leap of faith in. I have never been more content in my life, than when I am helping customers with there cellular needs. It has been great to push myself, knowing that I am the only person in my own way. I am finding too that many people want to help me succeed. I know that this was the right move for me. It is going to get me farther and help me obtain the goals for my career.
Dating, well as most are aware... I gave up on it. I was hell bent that I was done. Not going to happen. Sick of getting my heart trampled on. Well, someone that has been a friend for years, Changed this. It was truly unexpected. We were just hanging out. Going to movies and doing what friends do. Then one day, he asked me if I wanted to be his girl. At first, I wanted to say no. I believe the reason I said yes, is because He is and has always been the sweetest, most loving and caring person I have ever known. He treats me like a queen. Opens my doors, Wont let me pay, tells me how great and wonderful I am. Im not used to any of this, but I would dare say I truly am loving it. Most of all Ive opened my heart and am loving again.
The living situation has been really good. I was unaware of what a recluse I had become. How I had isolated myself from everyone. The part of the family that I live with reminds me daily about love and being loved. I realize that I perhaps have needed this for a long time. I love my nieces and nephews and how much they look up too and love me.
Last, I am so grateful for my friends, who have always been my cheerleaders and shown me what I did not see in myself. This process has been long, but through some reprogramming and rethinking about things, I finally get what a kick ass woman I am.
  I now have a four legged kid, with Jc. How funny is that. I have always been the crazy cat lady, Now just the crazy pet lady. 2 cats and a lil dog named gordon.
 So Friends and family, Thank you for always being there for me. For showing me light in my dark tunnel. I cannot wait to see what the future brings. Its looking bright.